What does this song mean to me?

I think I'll break down a song from time to time and it's personal meaning to me.

Today it's Expo 86 by Death Cab for Cutie.

Sometimes i think this cycle never ends
We slide from top to bottom and we turn and climb again
And it seems by the time that i have figured what it's worth
The squeaking of our skin against the steel has gotten worse.

But if i move my place in line i'll lose.
And i have waited, the anticipation's got me glued.

I am waiting for something to go wrong.
I am waiting for familiar resolve.

Sometimes it seems that i don't have the skills to recollect
The twists and turns of plots that took us from lovers to friends
I'm thinking i should take that volume back up off the shelf
And crack it's weary spine and read to help remind myself

But if i move my place in line i'll lose.
And I have waited, the anticipation's got me glued.

I am waiting for something to wrong
I am waiting for familiar resolve
I am waiting for another repeat
Another diet fed by crippling defeat
And i am waiting for that sense of relief
I am waiting for you to flee the scene
As if you held in your hand the smoking gun
And on the floor lay the one you said you loved.

And it's strange
They are basically the same
So i don't ask names anymore.

Sometimes i think this cycle never ends
We slide from top to bottom and we turn and climb again
And it seems by the time that i have figured what it's worth
The squeaking of our skin against the steel has gotten worse.

The squeaking of our skin against the steel has gotten worse [x2]

I do believe sometimes that I am waiting for the other shoe to drop in my life. It's a silly way to live, but I often fear the repercussions of my actions a year or two years later. Then I think I may not have that much left on this Earth, which leads to my fear of death, and the whole damn argument leaves me scared. This song has a great guitar part and always gets to me with it's great chorus part.

Like the song says though, I am waiting for that sense of relief. I know that I probably won't be able to get it living in my parents life and being a security guard. I honestly feel stuck though. Stuck in this irrelevant BS. oh well.